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[ A continuation ]

You could say I'm in the process of figuring that one out.

[ In other words? That's a no, Marie. ]

Edited 2019-12-08 14:30 (UTC)

So let me get this straight... You do not live anywhere, you do not like anything, you have nothing you enjoy... So what are you usually doing? How are you spending your days?

[Marie.exe is going to overheat and stop responding at this rate]

[ When she says it like that, Vanitas can't help but think maybe something isn't right with him. Aside from the obvious. ]

Train? Study?

[No, that’s not something she can comprehend]

A boy your age should not be limiting yourself like this! When do you play? When do you spend time with others? Did someone tell you you are not supposed to do that or...

...Play?

[ He shakes his head. ]

My mast didn't have time for any of that. None of that stuff matters when you're just trying to reach the end of your goal.

And that goal would be?

[Who was that master who robbed Vanitas out of normal childhood and teen behavior? Marie would have a word with them]

He wanted to create a very powerful weapon.

[ Vanitas can leave it at that for the time being. Trying to explain the concept of Kingdom Hearts to those that don't know of it's existence can come later. ]

And that was connected to you... how? Did he make you work on that weapon in some way?

[Well. It’s not like explaining the concept of Kingdom Hearts to those who do know would go much better. It’s... a bit complicated, after all]

In some way, yes. At first he thought that it could be created simply by my other half and myself clashing. It nearly worked...

However it's creation can only occur when Thirteen who wield the power of Darkness clash against Seven guardians of Light.

So, really, I am only a piece of a greater whole.

I am not sure how all of it works and I would love to hear this story from you someday - but you should know this one thing.

[She places a hand on his shoulder]

You are your own person.

[ Oh Marie... She is probably going to be able to figure out something real quick here. Because the moment that a hand falls on his shoulder? Vanitas flinches and just jerks away.

Maybe she'll even catch the slght panic in his gaze? ]

[She does.]

Vanitas? What’s wrong? Did I hurt you? Should I not be doing that?

[Marie is just worried, but it appears that there’s more to it, right? She moves away for a moment to give him space]

Don't touch me.

[ Okay, so very defensive. He's not hurt, no, but he's expecting it to.It's a knee jerk reaction because he's only ever had to fight. No hugs. Nothing good and wholesome at all. ]

I will not if you don’t want me to.

[Even someone as forward as Marie has eventually learned to give others space when they need it]

But I stand by what I said. You are your own person, not just a piece of something.

[ Maybe one day it will be possible, Marie. Right now though? Definitely not... ]

Evidence kind of points to the contrary...

[ Still kind of on edge. ]

What kind of evidence? Your own words about yourself?

[She won’t touch him again but she does raise her voice]

The master that mistreated you is not here. You are free to make your life your own, Vanitas.

I was not mistreated. Everything that was done was just to make me stronger and capable.

[ He isn't a victim! He's not weak! ]

Yes, you were. The love you should have for yourself has been taken away from you. You are not stronger without it. You deserve it back.

[Why can't you see it, Vanitas?]

Marie you can't take away something that I never had in the first place. Just because you don't realize that I'm a monster doesn't mean that I'm not one. What I am, what I've always been, is the manifestation of the Darkness that lingered in the heart of someone that doesn't really exist anymore.

[ He doesn't see it because he can't. If he accepts the fact that he deserves all of the love and affection that others seem to get, then that means that he let all of that stuff happen to him for no reason. His agency in his training and everything that he's worked for becomes meaningless. His struggles pointless. ]

I am pretty sure that -

[Behold, here comes a topic she does not really like to talk about, but it was okay. Getting Van’s emotions into place was more important and worth the discomfort]

Here, in Aefenglom? You are no monster anymore, you are a Witch. The monster here is me. And you know what? Even now that I have been transformed into a monster, I can love others and myself. You are not a monster, but even if you were, it would not change anything.

[She smiles, even if it is a bit forced]

Claiming it is not possible will get you on bad terms with half of this city, you know.

That's because the people of this land are moronic. It's not your physical features that define what you are and what you are not. Not all denizens of their respective worlds are strictly human-looking, after all.

[ Funny that he is, essentially, tellng Marie that she isn't some monster. Not really. The outward appearance isn't one that matters. ]

You are still capable of being the same person you've always been. What I am saying is that even if I am a Witch here, I am still an incomplete being. I cannot be more than what I am and what I am is a creature of Darkness.

Fine then. You are a “creature of Darkness” and a monster if that is how you insist to call yourself. I can respect that. This is how you defined yourself after all.

[She gives him a serious look]

What I do not understand is why being these things would also mean that you are somehow less than others. Everyone is different but everyone is their own person. So are you.

Because I am incomplete, perhaps? I am less in the sense that my heart - or soul - lacks its other half.

[ Though he doesn't necessarily think he is lesser than others. Just not a complete person. ]

Is it really this big of a deal? Instead of focusing on what you are missing, maybe pay more attention to what you do have?

[Is Vanitas even capable of the “glass half full” approach?

Would you want to focus on only what I have, if our roles were reversed? Only negative emotions and Darkness?

[ It isn't about the glass being half empty or half full. It's about the contents of the glass. ]

Masquerade - Marie

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got swamped by holiday stuff, sorry!

it's fine it's fine!

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i lost the notif for this and thought i answered orz

you're fine

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