darkcharge | IC Contact ( Aefenglom )

I was not mistreated. Everything that was done was just to make me stronger and capable.

[ He isn't a victim! He's not weak! ]

Yes, you were. The love you should have for yourself has been taken away from you. You are not stronger without it. You deserve it back.

[Why can't you see it, Vanitas?]

Marie you can't take away something that I never had in the first place. Just because you don't realize that I'm a monster doesn't mean that I'm not one. What I am, what I've always been, is the manifestation of the Darkness that lingered in the heart of someone that doesn't really exist anymore.

[ He doesn't see it because he can't. If he accepts the fact that he deserves all of the love and affection that others seem to get, then that means that he let all of that stuff happen to him for no reason. His agency in his training and everything that he's worked for becomes meaningless. His struggles pointless. ]

I am pretty sure that -

[Behold, here comes a topic she does not really like to talk about, but it was okay. Getting Van’s emotions into place was more important and worth the discomfort]

Here, in Aefenglom? You are no monster anymore, you are a Witch. The monster here is me. And you know what? Even now that I have been transformed into a monster, I can love others and myself. You are not a monster, but even if you were, it would not change anything.

[She smiles, even if it is a bit forced]

Claiming it is not possible will get you on bad terms with half of this city, you know.

That's because the people of this land are moronic. It's not your physical features that define what you are and what you are not. Not all denizens of their respective worlds are strictly human-looking, after all.

[ Funny that he is, essentially, tellng Marie that she isn't some monster. Not really. The outward appearance isn't one that matters. ]

You are still capable of being the same person you've always been. What I am saying is that even if I am a Witch here, I am still an incomplete being. I cannot be more than what I am and what I am is a creature of Darkness.

Fine then. You are a “creature of Darkness” and a monster if that is how you insist to call yourself. I can respect that. This is how you defined yourself after all.

[She gives him a serious look]

What I do not understand is why being these things would also mean that you are somehow less than others. Everyone is different but everyone is their own person. So are you.

Because I am incomplete, perhaps? I am less in the sense that my heart - or soul - lacks its other half.

[ Though he doesn't necessarily think he is lesser than others. Just not a complete person. ]

Is it really this big of a deal? Instead of focusing on what you are missing, maybe pay more attention to what you do have?

[Is Vanitas even capable of the “glass half full” approach?

Would you want to focus on only what I have, if our roles were reversed? Only negative emotions and Darkness?

[ It isn't about the glass being half empty or half full. It's about the contents of the glass. ]

This cannot be everything you are made of. Who did you hear it from? That master of yours?

[There must be something worthwhile in that glass, Vanitas!]

My Master didn't have to tell me this, Marie. If one separates the Light and Darkness from the heart, one half will contain that Light and the other the Darkness. Ventus holds the light so it only holds that I have the Darkness.

[ And all this without mentioning the Unversed. That would only strengthen his position in his mind. ]

[Marie admittedly does not know his whole situation. She wants to know more - so she can understand him better.]

Okay, so you are Darkness, negative emotions and just a part of a whole. This is what you are and how you describe yourself. This is also what brings you pain and makes you suffer. Is that how it is?

Yes. It is what I am though I am not sure where you get the pain and suffering from.

[ Now now Marie. Vanitas doesn’t acknowledge that unless it is convenient. ]

[That’s unfair, Vanitas. Pick one version and stick to it]

I have been listening to you? You make it clear that you are unhappy with this situation. You said this is the reason why you cannot be happy or make friends.

I wouldn't say that's the reason I don't make friends. That would be because I don't see the point in having them.

[ Though he does not deny the rest of it. It is the reason that Vanitas doesn't know what happiness for himself feels like. Van isn't happy with this situation. Who would be? ]

Well, but have you at least tried having them before making such a claim?

[Marie is determined to help Vanitas learn what happiness is]

No? What would I need to do that for?

[ No one he's ever been in contact with has ever really been anything other than a means to an end or an enemy. ]

So you could see a point to having friends, silly! [Marie smiles at him. Hopefully Vanitas does not take this as an offense] Or not, that would be up to you. But do not say you don’t need friends if you have never actually tried making any.

[What a good thing he is in a better place now and there are multiple people who only want the best for him]

[ Of course Vanitas has a counter-argument. He always does. However Marie makes him falter.

The whole 'don't say it unless you've tried it' thing is sort of. Too practical. And then she has to also say that it is up to him. ]

Huh...

[ WHY DO YOU PEOPLE KEEP MAKING HIM QUESTION THINGS. ]

So?

[A lovely smile of the Queen]

Can you promise me that you will at least try to make some friends? No pressure if you don’t feel like that’s for you, but just try it once!

[ Huh? She wants him to try? To make friends? Vanits just looks at her. ]

And how will I know when I have done that? Made a friend?

[Yes, just like that!]

Trust me, you will know when that happens!

[She chuckles]

Augh. That sounds totally subjective and not at all helpful.

[ Too bad that by the end of Feb he won't be able to deny that he might have friends. ]

Just try it. Do it for me and if it doesn’t work out, I will leave you alone with this. I promise.

[Told ya, Vanitas!]

Fine. Fine. If only because it will get you off of my case.

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i lost the notif for this and thought i answered orz

you're fine

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